Am I Enough

I'm starting to think I can totally get into this Pour Your Heart Out linky. There are so many things that roll around in my head that I am scared to put down on virtual paper. Not because they are, in actuality, something to be scared about but because they matter to me. I have never been one to put myself out there to be measured or judged by anyone. An example? I love to sing. LOVE to sing. But unless I'm on a stage and in character, I am terrified of singing in front of people and having them think "She thinks she can sing?"  Long story short, thanks Shell for creating a blog space that feels insulated from my fears.

One thing that I struggle with is that idea of being enough. Am I enough for DH? Can I meet all his needs and wants and expectations? Am I enough for myself? Can I do everything I want to do? Can I step past my own fears of inadequacy and find out what I am capable of? Am I enough of an employee? Do I do my job well? Do I slack when I could be productive? Am I attractive enough? Do I work hard enough at being the best me I can be physically? What exactly does it say about me that I ate an ENTIRE pan of rice krispie treats yesterday? Yep, an entire 9x13 pan. I hope that my ability to not eat like that every day is somewhat of a positive.

I think that in general I am enough. On a daily basis I don't worry about whether I'm doing everything I can be doing, but I just do it. I don't second guess DH's love for me or wonder if I fall short in his eyes. But I do think I can do better, be better, work harder. I'll just try to not question "Am I enough?"

Thanks Shell for letting me Pour My Heart Out on Wednesday!