Trying to have a family isn't as easy as I thought it would be. I never thought that we would be dipping our toes into the "infertility" pool. It kind of sucks, right? As teenagers, whether you're having sex or not, you worry about getting pregnant. And now I'm worrying about NOT getting pregnant. DH and I are happy, so happy, just being married. This should be enough for us. We have each other and we have our furry babies. We have great jobs and wonderful families. We are blessed in a myriad of ways. But we want a family.
A family. It doesn't have to look like everyone else's family. But I want it. I want it so bad I can taste it. I want it bad enough that we're on the Clomid train. Oh, what's that? Twins you say? Bring it. Even a slight chance of triplets? I'll take those odds.
Would DH and I be happy without a family? We could be. Will a baby be the glue that keeps us together? Nope. We're the glue that holds us together. Well, and God. Without Him we're up the creek without a paddle. Would we be a kick ass mom and dad? You bet.
What I know, though, is that if Clomid doesn't work, if we have to jump through flaming hoops, move toward adoption or further then that's what we'll do. And in the meantime, we're keeping our eyes open for what God is showing us right now. What He's teaching us right now. What we could be doing that's bigger right now. But I would be really thrilled if the Clomid train would reach it's intended destination.
Until then you can probably find me in the kitchen, eating donuts and drinking wine.
Showing posts with label My Other Half. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Other Half. Show all posts
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Monday, August 19, 2013
My Person...The Female One
Of course DH is my person. But I also have a female My Person. And My Person is getting hitched in 2 months! This weekend is her Bachelorette party and I'm sure that hilarity will abound. If from nothing else, the fact that I may be driving in Boston will be enough. I'm taking bets on how long and far we will be lost if I am behind the wheel. Although My Person will tell you that is Lady Gaga is in town, it will take us at least twice as long to get anywhere. Darn Gaga. She's always messing crap up. Add in Little Monsters and we just may turn tail and run to Maine.
In slightly related news, DH and I have been doing P90X. Mainly because we want to be healthier and we were starting to be "happy fat". But also because I have a bridesmaids dress to get into! The dress is beautiful...but it's got that dreaded column lining that is kryptonite to any girl with a booty and hips. My dress is 6 sizes too big for my body above the waist and is sqqqquuuueeezzing over my curves below the waist. I'm excited to say that there is a slight change in how it fits compared to when I tried it on in the store and how it fits now. We're really loving P90X! We're trying to stick to both the workouts and the diet. We've adapted the diet to fit our Walmart grocery budget by looking at overall amounts of protein, carbs, etc and making sure we're meeting the ratios but not doing all the Tony Horton bells and whistles. I even like most of the work-outs. I'm able to do regular push-ups which is exciting and as corny as he is on the videos, it does keep you going. Mondays have gotten harder since I'm starting to go to a bible study on Tuesday night...which means a double work-out on Monday. I learned last week to blow dry my hair on Monday night. By Tuesday morning I couldn't lift my arms above the boob line. Not good, people.
So watch out Boston here I come with my better toned P90X attitude!
In slightly related news, DH and I have been doing P90X. Mainly because we want to be healthier and we were starting to be "happy fat". But also because I have a bridesmaids dress to get into! The dress is beautiful...but it's got that dreaded column lining that is kryptonite to any girl with a booty and hips. My dress is 6 sizes too big for my body above the waist and is sqqqquuuueeezzing over my curves below the waist. I'm excited to say that there is a slight change in how it fits compared to when I tried it on in the store and how it fits now. We're really loving P90X! We're trying to stick to both the workouts and the diet. We've adapted the diet to fit our Walmart grocery budget by looking at overall amounts of protein, carbs, etc and making sure we're meeting the ratios but not doing all the Tony Horton bells and whistles. I even like most of the work-outs. I'm able to do regular push-ups which is exciting and as corny as he is on the videos, it does keep you going. Mondays have gotten harder since I'm starting to go to a bible study on Tuesday night...which means a double work-out on Monday. I learned last week to blow dry my hair on Monday night. By Tuesday morning I couldn't lift my arms above the boob line. Not good, people.
So watch out Boston here I come with my better toned P90X attitude!
Monday, May 20, 2013
Our Wedding Day...er...Continued
Have y'all ever woke up in the middle of the night with the kind of migraine/tension headache that makes you want to break a toe just to forget how bad your head hurts? That's exactly what happened the night before our wedding. I woke up multiple times that night and no matter what I did I couldn't get rid of the migraine. I finally got up super early, called my momma who was next door at the hotel, and used my last "Please come help me I'm sick" card of my before-married life. She came over with Advil, and electrostim machine and tea and fixed me up proper. I love my momma.
By the time we left for my bridal brunch, and after a quick trip to Walgreens for Excedrin and champagne, my head felt better and we could get on with the day! A dear friend from work threw us beautiful laid back brunch with tasty food, lovely drinks and lots of laughs. Then it was off to the races!
A whirlwind six hours later that were full of last minute fixes - "Oh I can fix that" was something that consistently came out of one bridesmaid's mouth...and she did! And a memorable "I need a pair of pliers!" in the groom's room... - laughter, especially when someone was up under my dress tying my petticoat, and tears for those who couldn't be with us, those who have passed on before their times and tears of happiness, and we were ready to get married. I was literally sitting on a chair that was under my dress when my coordinator came in at 6:05 and I said "What's going on? What are we waiting for?" and she replied "We're waiting for you!" I almost took the chair with me in my haste to get down that aisle.
*Our photographer, Monica Burkett of Freshold Photography, is the same photographer who did our engagement photos. We love her and her work!
I have never been happier to see DH than I was when we reached the end of the aisle. He looked so handsome and sure and not at all nervous. A short 20 minutes later I was allowed to kiss my man and call myself a wife!
From there on out the night flew and slowed down all at once. We had a lot of people tell us that their wedding is a blur, but for me I remember everything. It just went so fast!
And it all came about because a guy and a girl took a chance on one another...
By the time we left for my bridal brunch, and after a quick trip to Walgreens for Excedrin and champagne, my head felt better and we could get on with the day! A dear friend from work threw us beautiful laid back brunch with tasty food, lovely drinks and lots of laughs. Then it was off to the races!
A whirlwind six hours later that were full of last minute fixes - "Oh I can fix that" was something that consistently came out of one bridesmaid's mouth...and she did! And a memorable "I need a pair of pliers!" in the groom's room... - laughter, especially when someone was up under my dress tying my petticoat, and tears for those who couldn't be with us, those who have passed on before their times and tears of happiness, and we were ready to get married. I was literally sitting on a chair that was under my dress when my coordinator came in at 6:05 and I said "What's going on? What are we waiting for?" and she replied "We're waiting for you!" I almost took the chair with me in my haste to get down that aisle.
*Our photographer, Monica Burkett of Freshold Photography, is the same photographer who did our engagement photos. We love her and her work!
I have never been happier to see DH than I was when we reached the end of the aisle. He looked so handsome and sure and not at all nervous. A short 20 minutes later I was allowed to kiss my man and call myself a wife!
From there on out the night flew and slowed down all at once. We had a lot of people tell us that their wedding is a blur, but for me I remember everything. It just went so fast!
And it all came about because a guy and a girl took a chance on one another...
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
The First Auntie Em of the Season and Part of Our Wedding Memories
It's the first tornado warning of the season here in the Deep South. So of course I need to blog about it...and the vision I have of DH and myself...and the cats....in one bathroom....without any power...and a hysterical me....and an exasperated DH....and two hyper cats... Well, you get the gist of it.
Instead of that visual imagery, let's talk about my wedding. My beautiful perfect wonderful wedding! Well, almost perfect. There were a few very important people that weren't able to make it for our day due to new babies and graduation and just life that tends to intervene, but they were there in thought...or at least I think they were! Beyond that, the day was wonderful.
Let me back-up though. My parents and grandparents came in a week ahead to help with details and crafting and final plans. My momma did a ton of the planning and we executed everything once they were in town. It was glitter and punches and craft paper and a million and one trips to Jo-Ann's, Michael's and Hobby Lobby. Colors were much debated and at one point I was left wondering why I didn't just go with blush and bashful. Surely that would have been easier than matching specific shades of turquoise and coral.
My bridal party starting alighting on my house like birds coming home to rest, along with out of town guests as the week went on, including my godmother. It was so relieving to have loved friends and family around us as the stress of getting everything done grew. There is no way that our wedding would have been half as beautiful without them! We were all covered in turquoise tinsel glitter by the end of the week. I'm still finding glitter around the house despite the multiple vacuumings since coming home from the honeymoon.
The rehearsal went off without a hitch, as did the dinner which we held at a local BBQ restaurant. We wanted laid back and fun for our guests! After dinner DH and I wanted to be sure we spent even a few minutes with our out of town guests. Y'all, I have never been so amazed as I was by the friends that traveled for our wedding! I had friends from every part of my life, birth through today, who were there! Our great idea was to invite everyone for drinks to BDubs. I felt like I was being pulled in 40 different directions but it was a fun time. One of our friends said that it was great because at the wedding reception the next day they felt like they already knew people and it wasn't just a bunch of strangers. Whew!
I wish I had pictures to share but they are all residing in various cameras and phones...none of which I actually possess. I'll write more about the actual wedding day but if I put it all in here it would be a loooong post!
On a side note, I'm glad to be back writing. I'm even more glad that my DH is content to do his thing while I do mine. Hmmm...maybe it's time to switch from Dark Horse to Hubby. I'll think on that.
Instead of that visual imagery, let's talk about my wedding. My beautiful perfect wonderful wedding! Well, almost perfect. There were a few very important people that weren't able to make it for our day due to new babies and graduation and just life that tends to intervene, but they were there in thought...or at least I think they were! Beyond that, the day was wonderful.
Let me back-up though. My parents and grandparents came in a week ahead to help with details and crafting and final plans. My momma did a ton of the planning and we executed everything once they were in town. It was glitter and punches and craft paper and a million and one trips to Jo-Ann's, Michael's and Hobby Lobby. Colors were much debated and at one point I was left wondering why I didn't just go with blush and bashful. Surely that would have been easier than matching specific shades of turquoise and coral.
My bridal party starting alighting on my house like birds coming home to rest, along with out of town guests as the week went on, including my godmother. It was so relieving to have loved friends and family around us as the stress of getting everything done grew. There is no way that our wedding would have been half as beautiful without them! We were all covered in turquoise tinsel glitter by the end of the week. I'm still finding glitter around the house despite the multiple vacuumings since coming home from the honeymoon.
The rehearsal went off without a hitch, as did the dinner which we held at a local BBQ restaurant. We wanted laid back and fun for our guests! After dinner DH and I wanted to be sure we spent even a few minutes with our out of town guests. Y'all, I have never been so amazed as I was by the friends that traveled for our wedding! I had friends from every part of my life, birth through today, who were there! Our great idea was to invite everyone for drinks to BDubs. I felt like I was being pulled in 40 different directions but it was a fun time. One of our friends said that it was great because at the wedding reception the next day they felt like they already knew people and it wasn't just a bunch of strangers. Whew!
I wish I had pictures to share but they are all residing in various cameras and phones...none of which I actually possess. I'll write more about the actual wedding day but if I put it all in here it would be a loooong post!
On a side note, I'm glad to be back writing. I'm even more glad that my DH is content to do his thing while I do mine. Hmmm...maybe it's time to switch from Dark Horse to Hubby. I'll think on that.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Weekend, What Weekend?
It's been quite the week in my life! So if you left me any comments in the last 8 days, thank you so much! And you should have a reply back. I always love getting a reply back, so I try to do that as much as I can.
What in the world was going on that I couldn't get back to comments? Well, there was skydiving last weekend for DH. It's something I would never ever do myself but he loved it and I was so glad to have been able to give that to him for Christmas. When he's happy, I'm happier!
Does anyone else feel like a holiday in the middle of the week is just a tease? I so did this past week. The fourth was a great day - very laid back. DH and I spent the evening with friends, making pizza and watching Bridesmaids - "Help me. I'm poor."
But the best and most time consuming part of the week was my trip home to Da Burgh this past weekend. My godmother was getting remarried and I was so honored to have been there. She and Hubby are off honeymooning as we speak! As always, when I'm home whether for a week or a day there is much family involved. My MIB (Most Illustrious Brother) and SIL were home for the wedding as well which was awesome since we only see each other maybe once a year. My Little Bro and SIL live closer to my parents so I see them slightly more and they were part of this weekends festivities as well.
I do have a question though...why can't I stay awake past 10pm here in the Deep South but when I go back to my parents house my mom and I will stay awake until 1 or 2 in the morning talking and I don't get tired until my head hits the pillow? Also, how about that very long run on and on and on sentence?
There is one last thing I would like to share....
Isn't he a gentleman for not taking back my ring upon seeing me make this face?
What in the world was going on that I couldn't get back to comments? Well, there was skydiving last weekend for DH. It's something I would never ever do myself but he loved it and I was so glad to have been able to give that to him for Christmas. When he's happy, I'm happier!
Does anyone else feel like a holiday in the middle of the week is just a tease? I so did this past week. The fourth was a great day - very laid back. DH and I spent the evening with friends, making pizza and watching Bridesmaids - "Help me. I'm poor."
But the best and most time consuming part of the week was my trip home to Da Burgh this past weekend. My godmother was getting remarried and I was so honored to have been there. She and Hubby are off honeymooning as we speak! As always, when I'm home whether for a week or a day there is much family involved. My MIB (Most Illustrious Brother) and SIL were home for the wedding as well which was awesome since we only see each other maybe once a year. My Little Bro and SIL live closer to my parents so I see them slightly more and they were part of this weekends festivities as well.
I do have a question though...why can't I stay awake past 10pm here in the Deep South but when I go back to my parents house my mom and I will stay awake until 1 or 2 in the morning talking and I don't get tired until my head hits the pillow? Also, how about that very long run on and on and on sentence?
There is one last thing I would like to share....
Isn't he a gentleman for not taking back my ring upon seeing me make this face?
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
I'm a Gossip and a Critic
Truth: I used to be a horrible gossip. Yep, I said it. I would talk about everyone. And maybe that's what society tells us girls/women do, but it's still wrong. Sometimes we consider it a way to bond, so that's not bad, right? No, it still is. There's a difference between discussing a subject or being concerned and just badmouthing someone or something.
Truth: While I am a much improved keeper of secrets, I still gossip sometimes. Sigh. And I couch it in terms like "I'm concerned about..." or "I'm worried about...." when in my heart I just want to get the details or share the details. Kind of ugly.
Truth: I'm critical now instead of gossiping. Critical of crap that I shouldn't really give two flying farts about. (Sorry mom for all the potty language!) I critique things and people and books and movies and situations and other people's driving and reactions and responses and clothing and food and attitudes. This. Is. Bad.
Truth: I'm human. I will strive to be better. My Father covers me with grace when I am less than gracious. He gives me more leeway than I ever give others, with maybe the exception of DH. And even then I fall short of His goodness. And I can't begin to imagine how much He loves me, little piddling me, if I don't love DH as much as He loves me.
Truth: I get to do life with a group of funny, bossy, amazing, truthful, loving, in-the-Word women. They keep me real. They will correct out of love, they pray for my weak times and to give me strength, they comfort, they counsel and they are examples. I am forever grateful for the insight that they share when they have no idea what "Ah ha!" moments I'm having sitting next to them listening through the laughter and through the tears.
As always, I'm pouring my heart out with Shell
Truth: While I am a much improved keeper of secrets, I still gossip sometimes. Sigh. And I couch it in terms like "I'm concerned about..." or "I'm worried about...." when in my heart I just want to get the details or share the details. Kind of ugly.
Truth: I'm critical now instead of gossiping. Critical of crap that I shouldn't really give two flying farts about. (Sorry mom for all the potty language!) I critique things and people and books and movies and situations and other people's driving and reactions and responses and clothing and food and attitudes. This. Is. Bad.
Truth: I'm human. I will strive to be better. My Father covers me with grace when I am less than gracious. He gives me more leeway than I ever give others, with maybe the exception of DH. And even then I fall short of His goodness. And I can't begin to imagine how much He loves me, little piddling me, if I don't love DH as much as He loves me.
Truth: I get to do life with a group of funny, bossy, amazing, truthful, loving, in-the-Word women. They keep me real. They will correct out of love, they pray for my weak times and to give me strength, they comfort, they counsel and they are examples. I am forever grateful for the insight that they share when they have no idea what "Ah ha!" moments I'm having sitting next to them listening through the laughter and through the tears.
As always, I'm pouring my heart out with Shell
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Scenes from the Heart
This holiday season was busy! There was a trip home to the Far North so DH and I could spend time with my lovely family. It was a great trip and we were able to take a lot of time with my parents so DH and they could get to know one another. And get to know Primanti Bros.
He was amazed at the size of the sandwiches - he got the cheese steak with fries and coleslaw, of course.
There was Christmas day with both DH's father and stepmother and his mom and stepfather. And don't forget Sissy - the spoiled pup! But first, check out the faces DH made as he was realizing that he held a skydive gift certificate in his hands...
There was a New Year/DH and I's 1 Year Anniversary weekend which included Truluck's and flowers and friends. Oh, and lions, tigers and bears...and turtles. Thanks DH for my beautiful James Avery hoops!
And finally there was New Year's Day with German/Eastern European traditions of pork and sauerkraut. DH was introduced to this tradition and made his meal slightly more southern. I couldn't object - it's about taking our family traditions and making them our own, right?
Up next? Best Friend and I will get to spend time together 2 months in a row after going a year and a half without laying eyes on one another. Can't wait!!!!
There was Christmas day with both DH's father and stepmother and his mom and stepfather. And don't forget Sissy - the spoiled pup! But first, check out the faces DH made as he was realizing that he held a skydive gift certificate in his hands...
There was a New Year/DH and I's 1 Year Anniversary weekend which included Truluck's and flowers and friends. Oh, and lions, tigers and bears...and turtles. Thanks DH for my beautiful James Avery hoops!
And finally there was New Year's Day with German/Eastern European traditions of pork and sauerkraut. DH was introduced to this tradition and made his meal slightly more southern. I couldn't object - it's about taking our family traditions and making them our own, right?
Up next? Best Friend and I will get to spend time together 2 months in a row after going a year and a half without laying eyes on one another. Can't wait!!!!
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Barefoot in the Park
DH took me to the park for a picnic. We did not re-enact this scene....
I love this movie. Have you ever seen it? If you haven't, you need to. There are few things more entertaining in life than a young Robert Redford and Jane Fonda in a Neil Simon play. We did take our shoes off, so technically we were barefoot in the park.
We took a picnic blanket and laid in the grass, talking about whatever came to mind. It was a perfect morning. I can't think of anything I'd rather do than spend the day with him.
Anyway, we went to the park and it was a beautiful day. The only thing I did to these pictures was crop them. The light was beautiful, the sky was a rich blue and the grass was a spring green. I just wanted to share.
I love this movie. Have you ever seen it? If you haven't, you need to. There are few things more entertaining in life than a young Robert Redford and Jane Fonda in a Neil Simon play. We did take our shoes off, so technically we were barefoot in the park.
We took a picnic blanket and laid in the grass, talking about whatever came to mind. It was a perfect morning. I can't think of anything I'd rather do than spend the day with him.
Anyway, we went to the park and it was a beautiful day. The only thing I did to these pictures was crop them. The light was beautiful, the sky was a rich blue and the grass was a spring green. I just wanted to share.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Life Lately - A Photographic Perspective
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