Mama Kat has challenged me this week. It seemed easy enough - repost something that you wrote in July of a past year. I had to reread some of those posts to figure out which to repost. And this one still resonates to a huge degree. Did you know that everything has a resonant frequency where it vibrates with the least amount of stimulation? Apparently my personal resonant frequency has a bit of fear in it. But even more courage.
Originally posted July 2011
Have you ever thought you'd bested some of your greatest fears or weaknesses or flaws or hurts only to have them jump out of a closet at you? Um, figuratively, people. In case you know my fear of closets...the Jabberwocky didn't jump out and grab me last night. Breath easy.
I'm starting to realize that those fears or hurts don't ever leave totally. If you've read this post you know that I believe that we're changed by our experiences. However, changed does not equal being forever damaged. We still have the ability and wherewithal to choose to be different and not be defined by what others have done to us. Even when those actions have directed our steps. It has to be a conscious decision to take the experience and use it for what we need, though.
It's not always easy to do, recognize truth in the face of so many lies and twisted words that we tell ourselves. I had to remember this recently and slam that closet door shut again. I gain strength every time I need to heft myself against that door and it's still rusty hinges. Now if I could only find some proverbial WD-40...
I've found fears never go quite totally go away. Sometimes they just change clothes to look like something else and as you age, there are more of them.
ReplyDeleteLove this post and the other post that you linked back to on fear...
ReplyDeleteSo much truth here for me as well.
As I read these posts, I was reminded of our personal strength--our greatest weapon against fear.
Sometimes it's so hard to find that strength, even when I know I have it in me.
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