Slowly Getting There

The process of trying to have a baby is ridiculous when it doesn't happen naturally. Ludicrous. Outlandish. Insane. Undignified. Nonsensical. Bizarre.

And this is from a woman who isn't even doing IVF and all the harebrained but necessary hoops it makes you go through. (Which is weeks of suppression, thousands of dollars of injections to stimulate egg growth, egg retrieval under anesthesia, waiting to see how many embryos you have actually start and grow and survive, how many are normal genetically maybe and then finally transferring to see if any of them take with no guarantees of any of this working.)

I honestly thought that waiting for the embryos would be the hard part. That once we accepted them it would be a cakewalk from there. Oh Awn, how little have you learned in 3 years. See, I didn't count on my body rebelling at the last moments of this process. It's always been perfect on paper so these last two weeks were a surprise.

I don't understand everything about hormone levels, so I'm not going to try to explain it here. But basically in the last two weeks I've had 5 blood draws and 3 ultrasounds. Fun, right?!!? First my hormone levels were too high on the progesterone end of things. They came down over a week. Whew, crisis averted....but wait, there's more! (Please read that in Billy May's voice.) I thought we were completely home free at that point.

At my what-was-meant-to-be-the-last-monitoring-visit another issue popped up. Sorry if this is TMI but my uterus lining is not thick enough. Which means more meds and more ultrasounds. So where does this leave us? If things don't kick into gear then we'll have to wait another couple months to transfer the embryos. We want it to be perfect to transfer but if we have to wait it'll be rough.

So I'm sitting here trying to feel my uterus grow a lining and watching The West Wing while Evie sleeps and Henry tries to break into the kitchen cabinets. He's weird. I'm close to entering nutjob territory. Evie couldn't care less. That's our Saturday.